I found my laid back attitude has come as a surprise to the people that surround me. And while people could argue that it's not the best attitude, it seems that it's been a poignant turning point in my life; I work quicker and less to perfection. Don't get me wrong I can still have irrational moments of stress - but i never give up and cry.
I find myself these days looking at the people in my class the people who get stressed out and without sounding rude I 'pity' them for being in that mind set. Not in the way that you think, but in the way that I remember these feelings and how terrible the that feeling of stress can be.
I say things like "Calm down, you know your going to get it done" OR "Chill out, it's not the end of the world". Which may come across as rude or careless, but absolutely not with that intention. It's just that I want to look back at uni and think that I enjoyed it to the full not wasted three years being stressed out and leading an unbalanced lifestyle.
Who knows how it will pan out in 3rd Year? Or if this way of thinking will work. But for now it is, 3 1st's since Christmas. I've got to be doing something right. Don't get me wrong, I haven't completely changed, I'm still the same ridiculously sentimental, overly cautious, neurotic insomniac. But, I'm improving, and that's what life's about - isn't it?
To put it simply "It doesn't matter if I colour outside of the lines any more"
